One night I decided to really trying to get this spiritual mood happening. I am sure most of us had heard this story before, so I apologize.
“I was alone that night. I lit the candle, and had the windows open. I had the curtain strung, and I was trying to get that really spiritual feeling. It was a nice summer night in Melbourne; summer that can get you heaven. I was sitting there, and thinking this is it. This is the night.
I have been investigating all the spiritual proofs you know. All the scientific proofs about the fact, the mountain of the piths, about how do the embryo develop inside the women. All these are amazing proofs, but I still needed that little push. It was like I was at the edge of the cliff and I was ready to jump; so I just need the push.
So I was sitting there, sitting quiet. I was reading The Quran. Then I stopped. I said, ‘Allah, this is my moment. This is the time I’m about to jump into Islam. All I need is the sign, just a little sign, nothing huge. Maybe a bolter slightly, you know. Maybe the house could fall down or something just small. Small for You, man. Come on!’
So I sat there, I was waiting for the candle to start lighting up to form mating high like in the movie. Then I say, ‘ok, go’! And Subhanallah, nothing.. Absolutely nothing happened. I was really disappointed, to be honest.
I was still sitting there. I said, ‘Allah, this is Your chance. I’m here, I’m going nowhere. I’ll give you another chance. Ok, maybe You’re busy; daytime over the other side of the world, all of the stuff going on.. Maybe this time I could just leave Kaabah flooring. You know something small. I don’t care, just anything.’ So I say, ‘ok, go!’.
And Subhanallah, absolutely nothing happened. I mean I couldn’t even said, ‘err that was it, the creep that was sat on the wall, that was it’! Absolutely nothing happened. I was really disappointed. I was gasses.
I sat there, thinking this is it. That was my last chance, Islam..and I really haven’t found it. I took The Quran, and turn back to where I was reading. Subhanallah,
the very next verse on the next page.. “For those who ask for the signs, have you not shown for your reading? Look around you, look at the stars, look at the sun, look at water.. These are the signs for people of knowledge..”
When the light of Islam shines into Ruben’s heart.. SUBHANALLAH!