“Among everything in this world, what is it that you are afraid of?”
“God,” I said.
“Sure. Beside that?”
“Loss,”
She went silent. Expected to hear more, I guessed.
“You may ask any other persons the exact same question and probably hear
the same answer – LOSS. No matter how big or small the loss is to you.” I
paused as she looked at me, interesting.
I continued, “Hmm. Losing something or someone, you may say, is almost
terrifying because you are far from the readiness for whatever you are meant to
face. And there’s nothing you can do if that phase is ever written to happen in
any time from your life as how it is approved by Him The Almighty.”
I stopped.
“So..” she was thinking before replied, “what you’re really scared of is
actually your ability to accept the fact that you’re gonna experience the
losing of some-whatever-it-might-be.. Isn’t it?”
I just nodded, in agreement or what – I was not very sure. But that was
worth pondering for, I thought.
“Perhaps. Loss would surely happen, but are we really able to control
ourselves? – That’s such a question I would frequently ask to myself.”
“Indeed. So.. What are you really afraid of, again?”
I said, “Me. Myself.”
“Hmm..?”
“Sometimes we think that most people are just like us – too afraid of
what future will bring. We forgot, sometimes it’s ourselves, who lost in our
own heart.”